When the truth is revealed to you and you stand face to
face with it, how long can you refuse to accept it? How long would you run
away denying it?
There comes a point in your life when you have to break
free from all the chains that hold you back from answering the True Call.
It is a moment where nothing else seems significant and
equivalent to the call of the Almighty God and His path of freedom, bliss and
All the lies with which you have been living with start
fading and your beliefs as a disbeliever fall like a pack of cards. And what
you witness is an Eureka moment, a moment when you realize the truth, when you
realize the beauty of Islam.
Then you take no time to accept it. You just have to
take a bold step lest fearing the societal pressure and disagreement. For you
should always fight for the Truth and stand firm on to it, no matter be it
against your own kin.
I remember the day when I stood in front of the mirror
in my room, looking vaguely, trying to search for something but failing to find
an answer. In retrospect, I was never an atheist,
I always believed that God existed and being a Hindu it
existed for me in thousand forms: from a stone to a tree, from a tree to a
river, from a river to a well (funny but true). All were objects of worship
for me as I was told by my family and other traditions.
I took pride in being a polytheist, considering that all
objects made by God are worth worshipping and that there exists a part of God
in them, in every single being; so all are worthy of worship. It could be a
cow, a tree, a river (as I said also a well), idols and even human beings
I detested Islam for being so rigid and stubborn on
this. I found the Muslims static, living in the past, while the world is
moving far ahead of them. For me all their beliefs were unreasonable (maybe
because I never looked for reason), impractical, cruel and outdated.
Probably, it was not my fault; I was made to look at
them this way. It was a pre-conceived notion, which I inherited from this
society which has often kept a negative image of Islam in majority of its
My first encounter with Islam was in high school where
the majority of my classmates were Muslims and during free classes we used to
have discussions on Islam (largely because of the anti-Islam propaganda by the
Hindu Organizations post 9/11 and the Gujarat riots).
During these talks they tried to clear various
misconceptions that I carried regarding monotheism, rights of women, their
status, and other popular myths which have become clichéd more or less.
Yet, it was not convincing for me, I still kept those
beliefs and my pride in being polytheist. Though I was not anymore an
anti-Muslim, I was moved by the sufferings of the people who were one of us,
simply dying because they practiced a different faith. I became more secular
in my outlook.
I give the major credit of becoming a monotheist to Arya
Samaj, a Hindu organization that believes that Hinduism preaches monotheism and
not rituals and idol worshiping. After coming under its influence I stopped
worshiping idols, performing any sort of rituals and going to temples.
These are what I call the steps I was taking to finally
reach my destination that is Islam. Though Arya Samaj has its own flaws, I
again found myself in the same cob-web; where rituals and fire worshiping
became an integral part.
Reading Vedas, Manu Smiriti, and other scriptures only
confused me. It was all philosophical, nothing material which could help you
precisely find an answer for your daily life queries.
While in college studying Law, it was the first time
when the clarity of Islam dawned over me. It was nothing but a small course of
Family Law - Hindu Law and Islamic Law regarding marriages, divorce,
While Hindu law was riddled with various technicalities,
confusions, differences of opinions and lack of stability, Islamic law on the
other hand was clear, precise and certain.
My opinion here changed overnight. What I used to find
static, appeared stable to me. This made me curious to read more in this
regard; I spent hours online talking to friends who used to tell me about
I read various links and participated in forum
discussions. My outlook towards Islam started changing which was reflected
when I spoke with my friends or discussed things with them.
Of course this change was not appreciated by them, they
warned me against the so-called ‘brain washers’ whose sole aim is to divert
Hindus to Islam.
All this used to bother me, I felt scared of their
disagreement. I felt as though I were cheating my friends and family by doing
what they sternly disagreed of.
But, as I said earlier, how long can you run away from
the truth? You cannot live with a lie and accepting the truth needs courage.
And as the Holy Quran says:
“Believers, uphold justice. Always bear true witness, even if
it be against yourself, your parents, or your relatives-and regardless of
whether the person against whom you are speaking is rich or poor. God is close
to people regardless of their material circumstances. Do not be led by
emotion, as this may cause you to swerve from the truth. If you distort your
testimony, or refuse to testify, remember that God is aware of all your actions.”
And that day all the fears just drifted away, because if
I wouldn’t have converted then I guess I would never had. I would have stayed
stuck in the complexities of of the material world where false emotions stop
us from doing the right thing.
Though my friends and family members are yet unaware of
it, but certainly I will tell them sooner or later and I hope Insha’Allah
(God-willing) that they will respect my decision.
Alhamdullilah, I’m a Muslim today, trying to learn more
and more about the Holy Quran and the guidelines of Prophet Muhammad, may God
praise him. Insha’Allah, I will walk on his path in a better way.
With the help of a few friends and an organization, I’ve
learned to pray; I’m praying 5 times daily alhamdulillah. I pray to God to
give me more strength so that I could always stand firm on my decision.